hmmm

So i had a bad sleep night last night...

Every so often, I have dreams or flashbacks about my car accident. Usually they are just small flashes that cause me to wake up slowly and then sigh and go back to sleep. This time was one of those rare times where I wake up like someone grabbed me and I'm breathing really fast and can't get back to sleep for an hour or more.

The good news is, it could be worse. There have been times when I have a dream about the accident but the outcome changes. Those are the times where I wake up comepletely terrified. Glad it wasn't one of those.

The funny news. I think I scared my roommate haha She had just come into the room after talking to her boyfriend, ex-boyfriend??, i don't know the whole story. When she came in I jumped awake and she was like "It's just me!" I'm sorry she had to see that haha

It's just something that I have to deal with occasionaly, kind of like when I turn too fast or someone drive me takes a curve or turn too fast and I have to grab onto something in fear that the car will flip. I think it comes with any traumatic accident. It was WAY worse directly after, but i'm basically completely fine about it now.

I'm trying to think what reminded me of it though. I think that something subconciously reminded me of the accident, but I have no idea what it was. Oh well!!

Another thing that didn't help me sleep, but was kind of a welcome distraction, was a drunk dial from some friends back home. They are marines on leave and celebrating the 4th of july (or just reasons to get drunk) all weekend haha I basically talked to them for awhile just about what i'm doing here and whatever their drunk minds could think of. They passed the phone around and I got to say hi to quite a few people, it was really nice to talk to them, even if it was 6am here when they called haha

I went back to bed until 12 so I think I'm ok! And later today we're all going to Hyde park to eat food and hang out to celebrate the day and rub it in the faces of the British. There are so many americans here, i don't think it will be dangerous haha

Ok I'm gonna go get some lunch or something. I just needed to type out my thoughts! This blog is kind of therapeutic!

Meredith